I shouldntve thought, but I did

What would you do

....if you couldn't lie anymore?

What would you do

.... if you couldn't lie yourself away?

My brain thinks too fast and my body won't keep up,
As much as I try will it ever be enough?
I complain about this to complain about that,
I don't know the reason why but you won't believe it's fact.

My vocals are not ideal,
My complaint is on me,
Recovery is surreral

Probability

I've done some stupid things, and blamed my heart for controlling me
like a bird with broken wings waiting for time to set me free.
There's a paradise known as freedom.
It breaks my heart because I cannot see,
My heart must be retrained
to make my world belong to me.

Why do I have so much trouble, existing outside of my head
the thoughts inside speak in trouble and red.
My voice won't exactly sync with my speech
and I've fucking had enough
I'm no longer in reach.

Simplify

When she left, the sun came out

I don’t know why, yet somehow felt proud

I watched as she left – not a tear in sight

A beat from my heart turned the day into night

If you were the masterpiece I was after

You wouldn’t need to change a thing

I’d be with you night and day without question

If I started a fight, I haven’t learned my lesson

In time we found we're not connected

The love I had was quickly deflected

The love we had grew into a weapon

Something for you to slowly step on

You’re lucky enough to be alive,

I’ve run out of bullets.

Unmotivated

I’ve done nothing in life because I just get high

I try all these new things to do and I just get by

My mind keeps thinking that that’s the problem

And I get told the answers are in doing them

Trapped in a whirlpool towards a negative head

I wish now, that this is the end

Silence alone fighting in my room

Find the questions that seal my doom.

Just a Big Fuck without Penetration

x

One fucking mistake

Will destroy your fucking independence and dignity

You had your split fucking second chance

You fucked up your ability

Only one of you has seen it fucking coming

The fucking life you knew has taken judgement

You’ll be told to open your fucking eyes

And realise where the fuck it all went.

Now you’ve fucking woken up

You’ve lost what you fucking had

Now you’ll have to work as hard as you can

To get it fucking back

People are fucking doing everything for you

Now you’re just a fucking tool

You will wish to fuck that they would just fuck off

They won’t leave you alone – you’re a fool

Life's a mixed bag of nuts.

People are like nuts.

You survived 'Hitler', you must be an Almond.

Rough on the outside, yet smooth, nice, creative. 

You can do what you like and always be a laugh,

Almonds have the easiest kind of life.

Salt of the earth, true to yourself,

Never complaining, one of a kind, that's for sure.

A nut you'd rather not eat.

A nut that really doesn't need sugar coating.

My secret Cashew.

I don't know what you're feeling, but I get you.

Life has it's troubles, only you know what to do.

You protect everything that you feel is is right.

Decent, honest, chocolate covered cashew.

Where would I be without you?

Mr Pistachio, who likes you?

You legend! Hilarious, witty, on my level.

Hard shell on the outside, a sexual deviant  on the inside!

Your outrageous humour leaves me in stitches.

You're a WINNER!

Don't judge Mr Pistachio. 

THE NOT SO HELPFUL STRANGER.

Stop being so fucking insincere.
Your lie equals my lie.
I'm trapped in a body I can't escape
Sympathetic twisted words,
Empty gratitude,
This was our mistake.
Angry with the obstacle of fate
A past friendship dissolved
A life in disarray
The thought that sticks
Too hard to resist.
Take my insufficiency and bleed be dry.
Take your "heartfelt" words and listen to yourself.
As much as I try I can not submerge.

CAGED AFFAIRS.

WOAH! Come on mate.
You're gonna live your life expecting things
and hope that because you 'tan' nicely
you're gonna be,

a bird

with wings.

You know you've got no courage
You're the filth down on it's knees.
You know that you want something,
so just choose what you please.

There must be more than nothing,
but it's your life that's ignoring you.
Everyone's got their part to play
Could your thinking be askew??

You need to find something
that demands that you be there.
Instead of watching them be active
getting from here, to there.

You need to face your fears
to get out OFF this stage.
If things don't change, you'll always be,

a bird,

Existing

In a cage.

The one about you.

I thought it would pass,
But it's grip was built to last,
I imagined I'd be better then this,
Yet the story uncomfortably runs astray,
Here I am thinkin' life would change and promote a new day,
The lies I'd believe in, cause my hope to be twisted and in disarray.

You are well intitled to confuse your own opinion,
I know you'll change how it really goes,
You'll say what you will even though you don't know,
Your change with this story provokes incredible frustrations.
Giving me shit for the whole night,
I didn't think I'd care too much,
After all the trouble I go to,
You've really ended this yourself.


I am intrigued to find out the reason why I always make everything into a fight,
I'm never winning
Maybe I take things too seriously sometimes.
You know,
I know I've been taken full advantage of from the emotions I felt,
I was greatly hoping that you would be feeling the same
But you had continued to play around with only yourself to blame,
My heart and emotions, you've turned into your game,
I wonder why I care?



So I do.

THE CHAIR.

WHAT DO YOU THINK IS WRONG WITH ME
WHEN YOU SEE ME IN THIS CHAIR?

DO I LOOK TO PLAY BEST PART IN IT,
OR, DO YOU THINK I'M WITHOUT CARE?

MY LIFE I'VE DISBANDED
I'VE WATCHED IT FALL TO SEE IT GROW,

I'M UNABLE TO UNDERSTAND IT,
IS THIS THE WAY TO WATCH IT GO?

I REALLY LIKE THE IDEA OF YOU,
IS IT ME, OR YOU, THAT LACKS DISCIPLINE?

YOU ABANDONED ME HERE,
BUT I ALSO LET YOU GO.

WILL YOU BE BACK, I DO NOT KNOW OR CARE
BUT HERE I REMAIN,  IN THIS DAMN CHAIR.

I did not;

I didn't have a book on my person today,
To type is much easier, lest the feel has faded away,

My creativity is starving in spite of keeping up with things not yet legal,

My life has turned into turmoil, I don't know when to eat,
My body will start to crumble and lead me towards retreat
;I am not hidden, the sun's shine will not embrace today.

Another case of self-denial, one more life down the sink,
I did not ask for help, you know everyone sees it for a joke,
My humour will be the end of me, they say.
But i'm not singing for the group,
I'm all out of key,
Defeats the purpose of doing it alone, don't you think?

Yet i'm still having fun complaining;

I DID NOT have sex by my lonesome last night, boo-ya!

GIRL POWER...BANG BANG

She'll treat you like she's got the gun,

She's got the fire to make you turn around and run.

She knows what she wants so she goes out and gets it,

All in her stride and she never regrets it!

ROLL THE DICE

BEEN DEALT A BAD STACK OF CARDS.
LIVING ON MY OWN HAS BECOME RESTRICTIVE.
SCRATCHED OUT LIFE, THAT'S MY LUCK,
PUT A HAND ON THIS PAPER, TELL ME,
DO YOU FEEL THE SAME?

YOU'LL BE A LOVER IN MY BED,
THE TRIGGER INSIDE MY HEAD.
STANDING IN THE LIGHT,
BEGGING FOR THE NIGHT.
I'VE STOOD IN HELL,
QUESTIONED BY CONVICTION, TELL ME,
DO YOU FEEL THE SAME.

LIFE IS BUT A ROLL OF THE DICE.

MORNING COMES.

And the morning arises
along with the comfort of no clothes.
A stretch of the bones
and the elongation of muscles.

The blackness has no feeling,
no matter what happens, it's never giving.
She feels embarrassed so she turns away
before the morning ends, I think she'l go out today.

I HAD A DREAM ABOUT YOU....

I had a dream about you.
I thought you were awake.
You told me things no one else has.
You bought my demons out under the command of your hypnotic spell.
How did you leave your memory with me?

It's been so long now.
Your scars bring relevance to life.
It will carry you forever.
I'm telling myself a story,
with no words that can think.
I react to find it's birth of life.

THE INTERNAL EARTHQUAKE

AM I WORTH SOMETHING?
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.

YOU KNOW OUR LIVES WON'T LAST FOREVER
WE'RE JUST REMEMBERED BY EXPRESSIONS IN STONE.

I'M FAILING TO KEEP MY BODY INTACT
MY HEART WANTS LOVE,
BUT MY MIND IS SET OUT TO DISTRACT.

MY LIMBS START TO SHAKE FOR NO REASON
HIT BY AN EARTHQUAKE
LEFT TO FIGHT THE WRATH OF LESIONS.

I KNOW MY LIFE IS NOT OVER
DOES SOMEONE OR SOMETHING STILL WANT ME HERE?

THERE ARE NO MORE CHANCES,
NOTHING LEFT FOR ME TO FEAR.

I KNOW WHAT'S BROKEN GETS THROWN OUT
I'LL FIND ANY WAY THERE IS NO DOUBT.

NICK CAVE

He's got hair, with the luxury of neatness.

Thick, black hair, one strand hanging loose.

Thinkers eyebrows as straight as crossroads.

He wants to say what he's thinking, but he's too busy thinking!

His eyes are remaining shut.

He doesn't want reality to sink into his mindset.

The creative path will be lost if things become real again.

He draws to inhale, the anticipation of the next idea.

Provoking it, trying to find which path to follow.

He smokes three cigarettes in a row.

He will get there.

He doesn't want to rush it.

He is alone, just him and his creative thought storm.

SHE

She wants to be single while she travels the world.
With no heads or tails, there isn't too many choices.
Either accept the idea or send yourself into the spiral which 'could have been' more.

Is it manners or scars that get left behind?

Blood Brothers

He has a voice,
A positive outline for an iconic genius.
Undeniable character,
Vulgar, swearing, tea-drinking, British vision,
that needs to be seen to be believed.
Says what he means and don't give no shits.
CHILD OF THE DAMNED.
Energetically charged as he performs his unrelenting masterpiece,
the constant interaction,
bringing together a world-wide family.
THE TROOPERS bellowing out his tunes en masse
the sense of unrivaled welcoming,
for a moment, you're not alone,
the dense congregation of intimate spirits collide.
As the night unfolds and comes to an end,
IRON MAIDEN transformed me into a link of the BEAST.